It’s been quite awhile since my exit from WP. It gives me tremendous pleasure to be back with you all once again.
My Reminiscence continues..
Hope you enjoyed reading Part 1 and Part 2 of my Reminiscence.By now, those of you who had read the previous parts would have got to know about my life and memories and the people involved in it.
Well…This part too will contain the same but will be from another phase of my life,mainly focussing about the loss of the most caring and precious being of my life who brought me to this world.
It’s been thirteen years since I got married by now.Blessed with three adorable children a fairly large house and a comfortable life I was one of the luckiest to have everything one could ever wish for.My husband was promoted as the finance director of an apparel company with a fabulous remuneration including foreign travel once every six months.
By this time we managed to get the best schools for our kids, refurbish our house with all modern amenities and of course our very first Peugeot 406.
By now my only sibling brother married and settled in Botswana with his wife and two kids.His visits were limited due to the fact of being unable to travel long hours with his toddler.
Later that year my father who was working in the middle east retired, after serving the health ministry for 25 long years.His retirement plan was to invest in a property in the hills and spend his rest of his life with mom in the natures serenity surrounded by the mountains and wilderness.
Man proposes God disposes,As its told. They would have never had a hint of what’s the future is going to hold for them.
As desired my father bought a bungalow in a scenic environment in the hills.And was busy with the renovations.
Day 25 December’ 2004 night my dad calls us to say that he felt an extraordinary quiver while he was watching television.Hence been observing some prayers ever since fearing that could be some paranormal activity.None of us have ever experienced a tremor nor did have any idea about it although we’ve heard about earth quakes in various places in other parts of the world.
Next day being the Boxing day,while the whole nation was asleep after celebrating Christmas the previous day,Disaster strikes the coastal belt of most parts of Asia leaving the entire world in a total shock.
We were woken up by the news about the Sea receding and that people are flocking to see that unusual phenomenon.As I was about to sip my morning tea I heard helicopters flying over my house just the same way as it did during the ethnic war.I switch on the TV to know what’s going on,All Channels were in total chaos.All we got to know was about a huge tidal wave destroying the north and south eastern parts of the island.Since Tsunami was never familiar to Me nor to the people of Srilanka at that time. And from then on Tsunami became a household word among everyone around the world.
Exactly one month after that incident One afternoon while I had gone to pick my kids from school,my mother calls me and says not to release the driver since She, being a hypertension patient wanted to go to the hospital to get her blood pressure checked.I ask her Why and she said that she was having some discomfort in her chest and head.Since she was mentally very worried and upset afew days back upon hearing the calamity and obituaries of the near and dear ones who lost their lives to the Waves of Disaster.
My mother was only fifty seven years old never had any ailments except for high blood pressure.
At this moment I was left alone at home with my mom and the kids since my father had gone out station and my husband was away on his official trip abroad.
I rushed home immediately as I could, left the children at home and accompanied my mother to the hospital.There We were referred to the emergency unit. Immediate examinatios were done.My mother’s blood pressure was very high and the ECG was abnormal,and immediate admission was recommended. I knew something was terribly wrong. I rang my father and my husband and informed about mom being admitted to the Coronary Care Unit.
My father arrived the next day.And visited her.From then on we would go to visit her twice a day.
My visits in the evening was as usual. We spoke alot about household chores and she was always worried as to how I’m managing the usual chores with three kids.When I told her that the house work is been taken care of by someone else she immediately interrupted and said
“Nobody will fill my space ” She was Correct as always.
I never realised her intuition at that time.As usual I made sure she ate her dinner and fed her the soup which was on the table beside her.Later that night when it was about time to get back I went to her side and she was relating stories of how her father passed away at a very early age.I immediately reprimanded to what she was about to say not realising the cascading tears down my cheeks.
“Silly child,dont worry I will not leave you so soon,now wipe your tears” She commanded me.
Seeing me worried she promised me that she’s going to be fine and will be coming home in two days time.
The promise she gave me that day that she will never leave me so soon was like an assurance given to me by God and made me believe that she would somehow return home.
For a minute I went back in time to the kid in me with her assurance and forgot all the apprehensive thoughts which kept coming into my mind.But believed her and trusted the fact that Moms dont lie.
After the bowl of soup I wiped her mouth and I felt very happy for being able to aid her even with the smallest gesture since that was the very first time I’ve become an aid to her. For she was a person who does not like being dependent. So with the glass of water it was time for me to bid goodbye to her.I hugged her tight and kissed her and promised to return the next day morning.
“Dont forget to bring my Grand children tomorrow” She said very eagerly.For they were the World to her.
If I had only known that it’s our last goodbye I would have stayed by her side,doing nothing but holding her tight the entire night.
The next day,Things were getting back to normalcy.My mom was responding well to the medication I was told and after two days of medical observation at the CCU it was time for her to shift to the room.I was informed about her being shifted to a private room early in the morning by the hospital staff.
30th January. My morning visit to the hospital was disruptted due to my husbands arrival that day.So my plan was to visit her in the evening with my family.
My mom called me to say how well she was feeling after all those apprehensive thoughts.And was appreciating my father for the room he had gotten for her with a beautiful view of the Sea.And she was talking about how calm and peaceful it looked that day after playing havoc with the lives of thousands just a few days ago.And also insisted me to bring the kids along when coming in the evening. I felt so relieved to hear her normal tone again,alas I knew everythings gonna be alright.Not knowing what’s on store for me in the latter part of the day.
My children were the happiest that day planning to go and visit grandma.They all were attired with new clothes their father had brought,desperately needing to show off to granny.
As we reached the hospital things seemed very normal,but strangely we noticed a few relatives who were scuttling through the crowd.Yet to my conscience everything seemed to be normal as my mind was filled with relief and excitement for the thought that Mom had finaly made it,not even my intuition did say a word of something seriously had gone wrong.
As the elevator door opened there was commotion in that floor.I saw the doctors and nurses in a state of panic. We were stopped from proceeding any further.I knew that something was drastically wrong but couldnt come to terms with what would have happened in that situation.Since I firmly believed that mom has fully recovered.And she is really coming home.Somehow I managed to creep in through the crowd.
To my dismay I saw my Dad banging his head against the wall and weeping, and I finally got to know that she had,had a massive heart attack just a while ago.
And in the room I saw her pale and motionless with her face puzzled with so many unanswered questions and plenty of yearnings to see her loved ones.The doctors and nurses were performing CPR and shock treatment which never brought her back.
Seeing this all of a sudden made my brain freeze.I didnt know what was going on around me.I knew that something is terribly wrong but my mind was refusing to accept the fact that she’s gone.All the time I was abide by her assurance, the promise she gave me,
“I will not leave you so soon my dear” was constantly repeating in my mind.
By the time I realized the fact I felt betrayed and shattered like never before.I knew that I’m an adult and I should face such situation more maturely, but at that very second I felt very weak and lost without her,She who was my mother, my friend, my guide and my mentor was no more.I felt like a lost child sobbing aloud in search of her Mother.I sobbed till my heart ached. I sobbed till my eyes went dry. I sobbed like an eight year old, throughout the driveway uttering the same words again and again
“Mommy said that she will never leave Me so soon”
To be continued…
To all my dear readers who are blessed with Mothers:
“Cherish your Mother while you have the chance,cause tomorrow will be too late”
Thank you for reading